20020223 - 755 N Ashland
1:30 AM
So this is your journal, obvously?
how old am i
24,
25
14
cheers
(old style n a can)
do you like 14yearolds
no i am i'm smashed.
yeah one time i stole som ewiecollers from my mom and tried them in the basement with some vodka
i didn't even get caught.
it's okay thought - he's been granted access.
so we were going to leave = but apparently it didn't happen.
the spirit in our group ...
except for those
[crawls]
--oh hey thanks a lot.
i don't know where to go.
[slumps on floor in middle of group.]
ready?
people don't shake their ass to this got a hole in their soul.
dance.
do i got to take my shoes off?
[halfwaqy between breakdancing and synchronized swimming]
[changes seats for better view.]
im not that drunk i swear to god.
[repeats]
it's kinda like breakdancing but it's kinda like drunken moden dance.
they got a third party now.
you need me to narrate it'slike an olympic sport now.
whoever that drunk guy is he totally ruined the whole thing...that's the problem w/ drunk guys...now they got to school him...he doesn't heven know. seems we have a streaker on the field.
now it's turning into some kind of wwf shit - he's pushing her into the ring. t the whole sprit of the thing has been ruined.
(ah stoli)
stoli ruined my passion for vodka...i threw up on it once...the first time i ever threw up on anything i drank.
[the spirit needs to be regained]
(he's just transcribing..the situation at hand)
(what kind of fiction? (do i write))
just fiction fiction?
you learn all sorts of shit about yourself -- id didn't knwo i was obsessed /w that but apparently i am. (sneakers and pearls. oh yeah.)
(name drops david foster wallace)
(psychedelic pattycake)
he's like a writer's wet dream the way he can come up w. the right images.
*****
doppelgangers: everywhere, every bar, every party. (the vector of one person, in the shape of another person - one person's intentions inhabit anoth.er's body or looks or intentions or habits - like some non-euclidian crystal, the refractions, turning on it axes.)
smalltime paranoia: hallways.
the intentions of private writing, of pages thrown off a bridge: prayers for athiests.
squander time 0 dishonor the dead.
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editors's notes:
The "writer's wet dream" line was in ref. to a dj at the party, not to DFW.
Another memorable quote, via mogel: "I get weirded out by people who like house music as their favorite. it's like liking water as your favorite drink."
And to clarify the best line of the night:: "you read fiction you wrote 6 months ago and you realize all of these things you didn't realize you were obsessed with."
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